I shall write for you, about me

Well now that I have found a place to sit, I shall write for you. I shall write for you today something more personal, instead of some topical article. I shall write for you because I haven’t in sometime and I feel it has been to long. The main reason I shall write for you today, is because I would like to share something with you. It will most likely be something to do with my life. So now that you understand I shall be writing for you today, I shall begin.

I’m in an odd place in my life, well I always seem to be. I have been searching for the last 2 years. For what, I don’t know. For who, I don’t know. My hope is I find it and them soon.  I will try to explain this as best as I can.

I write a website that is growing and becoming more and more recognized, and I know tons of people in this town (Yellowknife) but still I am missing something. Now the reason for this post is not for pity (I don’t like pity), but it is more to explain how I feel when I’m alone. I know an amazing bunch of people, but the only issue is (I don’t know how to explain this properly) I don’t share that bond that good friends share (You’re all awesome by the way, please don’t take offense to this). I long for someone who shares my passion of things, someone who has an interest in Yellowknife and its community events, understands my passion for social media and maybe most important to me is someone that is relatively close to my own age.  That is a lot, to even imagine, but did you know I can almost guarantee the people and friends I will meet will be at least 10 years older than me. It is bizarre.

Like I said this is not a pity cry, I just wanted to get this down on words. I also understand my problem. It is me! Most of the time my mind is wondering how to do something or how I can make that work or where to find this and that, it never stops. From the second I wake up to the moment I fall asleep, I’m thinking about websites, design, social media, marketing, profiting, how-to’s or scheming how to make back money spent. If I could shut it off for a couple hours a day I would, because I know it affects the people I’m around. I barely have an interest in anything else, except for maybe my vehicles. But on the flip side, I wont push myself to fix my own problems. I say I want to go see live music at the bar or coffee shop but I don’t have anyone to go with, so I won’t go. Which is ultimately like stabbing myself in the foot, if I never go I will never meet anyone like that. Part of that, in my mind anyways, is that I don’t drink, so I rarely ever see the need to go out – or something like that.

I hope some of this makes sense. Maybe I am making this a lot more dramatic than it really is, but this is my blog and I can write want I feel.

No that I have written for you, you should write too. As you are doing that, I am going to go try the French Onion Soup and BLT combo from Tim Hortons.