I’m a relatively mellow person, I only rarely get hyper and want to run around like a mad person. Most of the time I’m just steadily going along my life without too much excitement. I don’t mind this, I actually prefer this. I’ll take a quiet coffee shop (late in the evening, hint hint), over any loud bar.
That being said I sometimes spend too much time by myself, which I’m getting tired of. Like this evening for example, I really wanted a nice mellow evening, again I’m much more of a morning person, so I wanted to keep it quiet. Oh, was it ever quiet, I ended up sitting in the middle of the living room with no electronics on, no music and no food cooking for just over an hour. I just sat there, with my thoughts. This is place I try to avoid, my thoughts get deeper, I start to wonder about my life, I start to get lonely and long for home again. *This is the part the dramatic music plays.
People ask me why I’m so public all the time, true is I’m not. There are many things I don’t talk about online, but I do share a lot online. Mainly because… it is an outlet to share life and meet interesting people along the way.
*Wow, this is a rather depressing post, I’m sure I can dig up another one exactly like this from a few months back, you’d think this was scheduled. Anyways, tomorrow morning I will wake refreshed and happy and probably not even remember this.