I ended off my last post talking about how I long for companionship and because of that I feel I must apologize or….. explain the type of person I am. I am horrible at conversations. I am alright at basic chit chat.I mean my gosh I work in a coffee shop I have to be. After that though I freeze up. I’m much like Shane Kozycan, the Canadian Poet who performed at the Olympics, I freeze up and would over analyze the conversation. Hell, before I start to talk to someone I don’t really know I’m going over what to say in my head, over and over again. This is effecting my business as well as my personal life.
I thought for the longest time I disliked text messaging or IMing and maybe I do, slightly, but what I think I dislike more is how hard it is for me to get out what I want to say in these messages. Although however much I dislike these tools, I would like to use them so when I ignore messages it is because I am ignoring them.
Is any of this making sense, or is the lack of sleep I get, getting the best of me.